“Today” is a song by the Chicago alternative rock band The Smashing Pumpkins, and it was 1 of the 4 singles from their 2nd album, Siamese Dream, which was released in 1993

(Left is the original album cover, right is the remastered version)

Now I’ve been a fan of smashing pumpkins—both the band and the recreational activity—for as long as I can remember. Loyalty to this band should be pretty self-explanatory because they make great music, but the recreational activity part might have some of you confused. Being a piece of shit kid on Halloween Night was the best, and for whatever reason, grabbing pumpkins from somebody’s front steps and smashing them in the street was pure ecstasy. I guess there’s just something primal about it, and if any psychologists are reading this and wanna chime in with an explanation, I’m all ears

Anyway, back to the song. Although happy sounding, both instrumentally and (somewhat) lyrically, it’s actually about a day that lead singer, Billy Corgan, thought about killing himself. That happiness/sadness dichotomy is what makes the song work the way that it does, and the music video really drives that point home

Depression, and its ultimatum, suicide, are complex things that a lot of people out there are lucky enough to not understand, and to say I’m envious of that kind of mindset doesn’t even do it justice. Buy hey: What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger, and if you’re like me and go through periods of intense depression from time to time, just keep on keeping on. There’s always music. ALWAYS.

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